Love is the answer.
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So I'm sending Valentine's cards to anyone who wants one.

I have extra that I bought this year, and also envelopes and watercolour paper and paint and pens and pencil crayons, so I will also take art prompts*, though I guarantee, like, nothing about that fill. (I might take a sideways turn and sketch you a dragon instead of a person or write a drabble or send you a mix instead of doing that visual art thing.)

If we are not mutuals on dreamwidth you are likely getting something without a return address from me, and if, you, too, would like to retain an aura of mystery - I've enabled anonymous asks on my tumblr so you can send me your address there. (A non-anonymous dreamwidth message is another option.) Anonymous or not, I won't keep a digital copy of your address and unless we start up a correspondence I won't keep a paper copy, either.

*I'm doing my Femslash February thing right now so prompts about men are likely to be interpreted as fandom prompts or a character type - I don't make or consume fanworks about men in February

...and those are the technical deets, I think. Let me know if there's a thing I've forgotten or something else.

I am excited to do a productive thing that is not communicating with government and is happy and slightly silly and joy spreading. I also really need to do art things because art is good for me and an outlet - when I start art-ing in areas of my life where it's not really called for that's a sign, I think.

I also really love Valentine's Day, because I run that the way I want to, basically, so: love letters or fan art or flowers or cards for friends and whatever I want. Generally I tend to celebrate it in the same spirit I did when I was six. I do what I want and it makes me happy. It's nice; I recommend it.

Last year was the first fannish Valentine I've sent, I think - there was a store bought card that I had to add supplementary fanart to and then sign as a fictional character. I spent a lot of time giggling, I think.

So, yep: love and joy and Valentine's Day! Let me know if you want to be on my mailing list for that this year and drop me an ask or send a dreamwidth message with your address and maybe an art prompt. (I won't do dudes but I may have some hunks of Canada pin-up art postcards around, and I will do international mail.)

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Snowflake Challenge: Day Six
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In your own space, create a list of at least three fannish things you'd love to receive, something you've wanted but were afraid to ask for - a fannish wish-list of sorts. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it.

01. Go and vote for Marie-Philip Poulin for Captain for the 2017 Canadian Women's Hockey League All Star Game: HERE. Tell me about it, maybe?

Marie-Philip Poulin is sometimes called the Sydney Crosby of women's hockey, because she's a two time Olympic gold medal game-winning-goal-scorer for Canada, and she's good. I feel like game winning goals are kind of her thing, along with being just a fantastic person in general?

Like, she just seems like she has a good sense of humour and is kind of a French Canadian dork and also this fucking amazing role model of a human being:

Here is:
a gifset in which Poulin is doing that role model thing
a gifset of some of her on ice encouragement
a a photo of her tackling an ex teammate (I think) into a foam pit at the winter classic a year ago
a gifset of Pou on ice fails, basically

Marie-Philip Poulin is great, and I want to watch her make terrible jokes as she picks out her all star game team roster or try to steal all the goalies or be super casual and relaxed about the whole thing, because that seems like a her thing to do. And I want to watch her take the ceremonial puck drop at centre ice in the ACC and skate around there with a "C" on her chest.

You can vote every 24 hours until Thursday February 2, and anything helps and is amazing.

02. Meta on Reccing. Especially before 2003 and after 2013, and especially on non-journal platforms, though anything is good.

I have a project in my back pocket that involves compiling a lot of meta on reccing. Those "especially"s are where I have fewer links and where help would be really useful.

03. Tell me about a femslashy thing you love.

I love to hear what people are interested in and excited about, and femslash is love. ♥

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These are my favourite* tropes// I know you like them, too//If you get a new fandom
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...It should be this one
(I can't believe I ran out of characters in a dreamwidth title. Anyway. Yeah, there was a period when I was making this where I was listening to that song a lot for another project. I'm not sorry.)
*A more accurate title would be something like "Wherein [personal profile] kiki_eng attempts to lure people into bandom by way of tropes." You know you're weak to this. Don't even front.


THESE FEELINGS ARE SO UNEXPECTED
Songs About Vikings by [archiveofourown.org profile] skoosiepants
Panic! at the Disco | Brendon/Spencer | Rating: PG-13 | 2,223 words
The fifth time Brendon jerks off to a guy, he calls up Shane and says, "Spencer Smith's beard made me gay."
Spencer Smith's beard gave me feelings? I'm not sure what else you need to know. I like to pretend that I am not constantly reccing [archiveofourown.org profile] skoosiepants' work, but I probably already have written somewhere on my journal, about one of her fics: cute, fun, funny, I wanted to curl up in it and live there forever, a cat in a sunbeam, eternally happy. Would recommend. Am recommending.

ACCIDENTAL MARRIAGE OF CONVENIENCE FIC
Pluck All Your Silly Strings by [archiveofourown.org profile] jocondite
Panic! at the Disco | Brendon/Spencer | Rating: PG-13 | 5,047 words
Summary: Brendon and Spencer get secretly married for Sinister Tax Purposes.
I am sorry, but that is the best reason to get married. I feel, in my heart of hearts, that at its heart, that is what marriage is for. So, it's like, please, tell me about how you are so married this seemed like a plan. [archiveofourown.org profile] jocondite does. It's good.

SEX POLLEN FIC
Ask Yourself What Matters by [personal profile] formerlydf
Bandom | Gabe/William | Rating: NC-17 | 11,000 words
There's a voice inside his head telling him that this is Bill, this is Bill in pain, he should be there, he should try to make it better, he shouldn't leave Bill alone, and there's another voice reminding him of how much Bill likes his privacy, that he should respect the few intact boundaries they have left.
I love fic that's interested in consent and feelings. I also love fic that takes a trope that's a path to a pwp and goes somewhere else. So, yes, read all about that time Gabe didn't fuck William in a hotel room.

BONDAGE FIC
Pushing the Boundaries by [archiveofourown.org profile] airgiodslv
Bandom | Gabe/William | 11,946 words | PG-13 | Ableist language: "lame"
“This isn’t exactly what I thought you had in mind when you said retreat, bro,” Gabe comments, fingers digging into muscle just enough to make William’s shoulders rise.
Friendly bondage turns into sexy bondage, gradually. This is pretty domestic; they're so comfortable with each other.

AGE GAP SCHOOL AGE VET AU
Tongue-tied And Overloaded by [archiveofourown.org profile] skoosiepants
Bandom/Disney RPF | Gabe/William | Rating: PG-13 | 7,926 words
So, whatever, William’s young, and nervous – and Gabe kind of scares the shit out of him – but he’s not going to let that stop him from seducing Gabe. Again.
This fic is: fuzzy animals and waiting to get older and get noticed. (Also, yes, apparently I am not trying very hard to pretend that I do not always rec [archiveofourown.org profile] skoosiepants. The Disney RPF crossover is an essential lure, okay? It's fucking magic.) There are shenanigans and teenage insecurity and it's all thoroughly adorable.

HP FUSION VEELA SOULBONDING FIC
I Show Not Your Face by formerlydf
The Academy Is.../Panic! at the Disco | Jon/William | Rating: PG-13 | 21,919 words | Ableist language: "lame"
It's not awkward — mostly, Jon thinks, because he doesn't spend too much time thinking about it, and he doesn't think William does, either. It's what happens, when you tour. Not with everybody you meet, obviously, but it's just a generally known fact that the more time you spend with somebody, the greater your chances of sleeping with them while under the influence of some sort of alcohol.
This may actually be my favourite HP Fusion ever. It's like bandom's magical realism thing on a series of tour buses that have been transformed into the Burrow and there's pining and werewolves. So: fucking lovely cobbled together magic with the soul of a poet and a note of tension strung through.

FRANK IS A MOTHERFUCKING WEREWOLF
Run by mrsronweasley
My Chemical Romance | Frank/Gerard | Rating: NC-17 | 60,000 words | Ableist language: "lame"
Summary: Being a secret teenage werewolf is hard. Frank should know. He is one. (written for werewolfbigbang)
The tone of this thing is great. There's something perfect about a teenaged werewolf and this does a really good job on following through on the whole teenaged part.

IS THE TITLE A KNITTING INSTRUCTION/PUN? YES, YES, I THINK IT IS. POLY KNITTING AU, MOTHERFUCKERS.
sl1 k2tog psso by [personal profile] carleton97
My Chemical Romance | Bob/Frank/Jamia | Rating: NC-17 | 9,100 words
"You really are a big softie, aren't you?"
"Shut up and finish crocheting your Cthulhu, Gerard."

Bob owns a knitting shop and Jamia and Lyn set up a sex shop next door. Everyone knits a lot and Jamia and Frank decide they want to keep Bob forever. I mentioned the poly knitting AU thing? (Bonus little old ladies and cooking classes.)

HIGH SCHOOL AU WITH ADORABLE MISUNDERSTANDINGS
Different Pages of the Same Name by finkpishnets
The Like | Z/Annie | Rating: PG | 2,171 words
Annie won’t admit it aloud but she’s sort of ridiculously glad for the start of senior year.
Adorable. Cute and lovely. Features friendship and people being awkward about having feelings and that thing where getting to know your crush is sweetly complicated instead of straightforward. Obliviousness is also a thing and it's just pretty damn sweet all round.

PSEUDO-HISTORICAL ARRANGED MARRIAGE AU
All the While You Hold the Key by wordslinging
My Chemical Romance | Frank/Gerard | Rating: R | 10,573 words
Because what you really want to read about is Frank struggling to hide his sickly disposition and Gerard having architectural schemes and them both being gone for each other, and, like, insecure and noble and shit.

HIGHSCHOOL DRAMA CLUB AU
Hurricane and Fire Survival Guide by [archiveofourown.org profile] softlyforgotten
Bandom | Greta/Victoria | Rating: PG-13 | 25,508 words
Summary: Victoria Asher goes to school, stars in a play, and falls in love.
Fuck yes, this fic. It's about Victoria being a bit of an asshole and caught up in her own shit, and there's a drama club. Oh, is there drama club; A+ use of drama club. The summary could also have been: wherein Victoria pines for her old friends and makes new ones in spite of herself. It's great.

SUPERNATURAL COP AU
Take Your Breath Away by [archiveofourown.org profile] cest_what
The Like | Annie/Laena | Rating: PG-13 | 2,951 words
Summary: When Annie got her police badge she didn't think she'd spend her first supernatural incident running for her life. But you can't fight a breath-stealer.
I am not really clear on how this thing manages to be both gritty and adorable, but that is a thing this urban fantasy AU does. Laena is totally swoon-worthy in this and Annie's still new at this job; they fight crime.

UNDERCOVER COP AU
Let Me Shake Up Your World by [archiveofourown.org profile] paperclipbitch
Bandom | Greta/Victoria | Rating: PG-13 | 5,715 words
Pete says that her skills at lying are what make her so invaluable as an undercover officer. Victoria thinks that they probably make her a sociopath.
This is based on a Cobra Starship music video, so Greta and Victoria are working on shutting down a drug operation based out of a club. I love how this thing goes down between them from a trope standpoint. Victoria is great in this.

"CASUAL" SEX AND PINING
Highway Lines and Interstate Signs by [archiveofourown.org profile] AirgiodSLV
Bandom | William/Travis | Rating: NC-17 | 18,791 words
“This is a tour,” Travis replies easily. “Stop packing, you’ve got five days still. Take a vacation. I’ll see you on Warped.”
I put this fic into my draft for this entry a long time ago and so my notes from, like, five years ago, probably, are: "William is made of pretty and feelings" which seems like a pretty promising thing for a tour fic about sex and pining. Also I am pretty sure I do not remember this fic that much because I ended up, like, sucker-punched with the ferocity of how much I shipped those two, so you know it was good.

BASEBALL AU
Take That Fork in the Road and Wherever It Goes by [archiveofourown.org profile] roebling and [archiveofourown.org profile] roebling & [archiveofourown.org profile] stele3, respectively
Panic! at the Disco | Brendon/Spencer | Rating: PG-13 | 17,164 and 20,545 words
Welcome to caring intensely about baseball. I read the sequel first and it is basically the story of a single game of baseball with a lot of memories thrown in, and, I got so invested, in Spencer's feelings and how much the game he was pitching meant, and, yeah. I'm not over it. The first one is a bit more a college AU than a baseball story, but I absolutely recommend both, and if you are emotionally invested in Ngozi's Check Please you will probably be pretty happy with this whole thing - read it even if you're not, maybe. There is angst and pining here, too, and being a closeted pro athlete, and it is a beautiful mix of things that you need in your life.

"THE HOUSE IS ALIVE! *BEAMS*"
Taken My Place by harborshore
My Chemical Romance | Mikey/Ray | Rating: PG-13 | 6,000 words
The house is old. Really, the house is practically ancient; it groans and complains when the fall storms come calling, and the shed in the garden is holding itself together through sheer will and the last rusty nails clinging to the walls.
This is charming and adorable and Ray and Mikey are roommates in a house that is old and cranky and everything sorts itself out. ♥ I fucking love magic domestic fic.

So that's it, apparently: 16 tropey fic recs painting nowhere near a complete picture of bandom, its characters, ships, or ficcers - like, seriously, one of my main pairings is not in this and I don't know how that happened and this list is so short. I started writing this for [personal profile] readbystarlight years ago and accidentally lured her into other fandoms as I was writing this, but: now is a good time to be in bandom, I feel. It is always a good time to be in bandom. You should join me. *nods*

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stronger than
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01. Your Mother by [personal profile] ghost_lingering
Saga | R | 1:27 | Alana & Hazel
Audio: If I Should Have A Daughter by Sarah Kay

This is a really engaging comics vid that packs a really strong emotional punch. The source is a still medium and it's set to spoken word, and it moves and pulls you in, and just might make you cry. It's about love and strength and unrelenting optimism in the face of terrible things.

02. L.E.S. Artistes by cherryice
Terminator Movies | R | 3:30 | Sarah Connor
Summary: Sarah Connor. To tell it straight, I'm trying to build a wall.
Music: L.E.S. Artistes - Santigold

The story of the Terminator films, about Sarah's voyage, fighting the darkness with all you have, and hammering yourself into a weapon in the fire. This vid hurts a bit - there's a kind of rawness to it, well-executed.

03. Hammerhead by [personal profile] such_heights
Doctor Who | PG | 3:34 | Martha Jones
Summary: Prove 'em wrong, girl.
Music: A Brand

A vid about Martha fighting, and shining, and winning. I love Martha so much, and this reminds me why, with her facing down everyone's shit, and always carving her path and making friends. Martha Jones talks to people and she listens and she fights, and she saves the world, and herself. This vid captures her perfectly.

04. Rescue by [personal profile] cosmic_llin
Miss Fisher's Murder Mysteries | PG | 3:46 | Phrynne, Dot
Summary: We don't need no rescuing, we're ok.
Song: Rescue by Yuna

Phrynne faces the world fearlessly and Dot faces her fears; it's a vid about them and all the women of the Phyrnne Fisher verse facing things down and being there to support each other as they do, in good and bad times. This is such an uplifting vid.


(This post is for [community profile] snowflake_challenge. Details about the fifth day are here.)

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Snowflake Challenge: Day Two
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In your own space, share a book/song/movie/tv show/fanwork/etc that changed your life. Something that impacted on your consciousness in a way that left its mark on your soul. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it.

Dealing with Dragons by Patricia C. Wrede

This book basically ate my brain when I read it as a kid and I became thoroughly obsessed with it. It consumed me, basically, in a good way - it sparked a lot of creativity and some of my early independent writing had its roots in that book's style, sensibilities, and humour.

Looking back on it, I think one of the greatest gifts it gave me was its characters, especially Morwen.

Cimorene showed me that I could have my own adventures, they didn't have to look like anyone else's, and I didn't have to fit in at home to be happy; I could find my own place. That was a really valuable thing to have, and to have pre-puberty, I think.

Morwen, though, was who I wanted to grow up to be. She was magic and clever and lived alone with a bunch of cats and she was happy. She kept her house neat and tidy, exactly how she liked it, was a skilled baker and ciderer, and was working on organising her library. She put up barriers to keep crap from entering her life (none of this nonsense, please).

I think Morwen let me grow up imagining a future for myself where being by myself and living by myself and doing the work I wanted to do was an option, and that option a given.

She introduced me to witches as independent women with deep lives, strong friendships, and morals. You could probably write a strong meta piece about Kazul, Morwen, and Cimorene - a dragon, a witch, and an improper princess - living outside the bounds of polite society and facing down the patriarchy (wizards): feminism and fairy tales in the enchanted forest and mountains of morning.

Morwen made me want to be a witch when I grew up, and she set me up pretty well for meeting the witches of the Discworld - and feminist texts for that matter. ...and you know what? I've got two feet on the ground, know I'm never going to fly on a broomstick, have been filing taxes for years, and I still want to be a witch.

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Snowflake Challenge: Day One
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In your own space, post a rec for at least three fanworks that you have created. It can be your favorite fanworks that you've created, or fanworks you feel no one ever saw, or fanworks you say would define you as a creator. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

(reconciliation)
This is a rec set I made for [community profile] snowflake_challenge last year, on a fannish trope I love. These are some of my favourite stories in general, and reading them I feel like they sink into my bones; they're all really satisfying for me and I'm really happy to have recced them together. (recced: 3 bandom fic, 1 hp, 1 tsn)

SGA, Harry Potter (were you ever in HP?)
I did a December meme last year, shifted and made into a Second Half of January meme - the title was a prompt that was given to me, and I wrote a rec set/playlist of 10 vids in those two fandoms. It's kind of about home and scary things and standing strong and going fuck it - so, life, basically, and some of the major themes in those two fandoms.

"Femslash! Now that you brought it up :D"
Another prompt from the second half of January theme. This post is half rambling meta about representation as a queer woman and half recs. (6 fics: bend it like beckham, bandom, pitch perfect, glee, merlin, elementary and 2 vids: grey's anatomy, xena) It's a pretty messy entry in some ways. Femslash and representation both mean a lot to me; I have a lot of feelings about stories.

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snowflake_challenge needs volunteers to run this year
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[community profile] snowflake_challenge is a posting challenge that runs annually for the first fifteen days in January. Some of the challenges are fannish in nature, some of them aren't, but they're all designed to be as do-able as possible for people and to encourage expression and creativity and caring and happiness, basically. It's a super-chill challenge, you do as much or as little as you like.

The mods are fantastic. In addition to posting a new challenge each day, they also post a ton of comments on the participants posts - the "I did it!" posts that they make on the comm and the post that they made on their journal or tumblr. The mods do an amazing job at setting a tone of encouragement and enthusiasm throughout the challenge and I've had some really great interactions as a result of the challenge and that tone.

I'm going to be so sorry to see it go, if it does, because that's the thing: it is a lot of work to run a challenge like that and they can do it because they have a team of multiple people trading off and making schedules behind the scenes, I imagine. This year has been a year of changes for a lot of people, though, and a lot of the old mods can't run the challenge this year, so they need new people.

So, if you've loved this challenge, or are excited about the idea of it, I encourage you to help out however you can - spreading the word or volunteering.

This year has been fairly crap for a lot of people in many ways, and, I kind of think of [community profile] snowflake_challenge, as, like, an extended More Joy Day. We could use some more joy this coming year, I think.

(The official how to help post is here. Yes, there are three links to the same post in this entry.)

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Today.
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I stayed up until just about the end, last night, around fifteen minutes before they called it, and so I have gone through the day with too much to do on too little sleep. I felt like I was going to a funeral, heading out this morning.

Today I have been frustrated and angry and sad. I feel threatened. I feel that we are beginning a very difficult time and that there is so much potential for evil - for greed, for oppression, for violence, for atrocities. I am wary of what will happen in the United States of America and what may spill over, and I think that is sort of where we need to be. Wary. Aware.

We need to be watching and I think that we need to be very aware of the past as we do that, and of the sort of things that have come to pass when this kind of rhetoric has been spoken. And we need to be ready to say "no" and "never again".

I think there are many different faces of resistance, and we have seen that, in history.

I think that pervasive fear and anger can be like gasoline and I think it can smother freedom and goodness.

I think that there is a place in all of this, for those of us that can manage it, for radical kindness, and to fight evil with good; I think that this is part of resistance.

I've been remembering today, Jack Layton's words of over five years ago:

"My friends, love is better than anger. Hope is better than fear. Optimism is better than despair. So let us be loving, hopeful, and optimistic. And we'll change the world."

I think we need some of those things, today. I think it is easy to forget they exist, today. (I've needed those words, today.)

I think that we need to prepare for the worst, but make the world we try to build not be shaped by fear, despair, and anger. We need to keep fighting.

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Journalism
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The Agenda did a piece this week on a documentary, All Governments Lie, and the issues surrounding that film - it's about journalism and one journalist in particular: I.F. Stone. The piece is: Failure of the Fourth Estate. One of the things that the panelists seem to agree on is that independent journalists are, because of the compromised state of mainstream American media at present, in a sort of golden age; that there is a lot of independent journalism happening right now because there is a place for it, because of the way corporate media outlets are failing to report and investigate.

John Oliver did a piece on the decline of the newspaper industry a month ago - Journalism - where he talked about the importance of investigative reporting and the economic pressures that are leading and have led to its decline. (There's a skit about covering a cat raccoon news story in it. Hilariously, the day after I watched this The Toronto Star had a teaser for an article about an albino raccoon front page, above the fold.)

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Fanmix: Bandom: Three is a Magic Number
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Fanmix for [community profile] bandombigbang, complement to [personal profile] argentumlupine's podfic, Half of Something Else(, a podfic of [archiveofourown.org profile] fleurdeliser and [archiveofourown.org profile] tuesdaysgone's fic, Half of Something Else).

Title: Three is a Magic Number
Format: fanmix
Bands: My Chemical Romance
Pairings: Frank Iero/Gerard Way/Grant Morrison
Size: 25 songs
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: addiction (the singer in track 5 pledges to enable an imaginary addiction and in 21 there's a positive drug metaphor)
Summary: "hand in hand is the only way to land"


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